Category: Autism

  • So, You Think I Am Boring?

    So, you think I am boring? Well, I don’t deny it After all, I am socially awkward I can’t make small talk to save my life Whenever there is a party I am the last one to get an invite And even that usually happens Because someone drops out at the eleventh hour Cracking jokes…

  • How an autowallah broke my spirit

    11th October was not a great day. My new Acer laptop (purchased by my boss just a month ago) was already having all sorts of problems – the charging was taking ages – 5 mins for a mere 1 % ! :O Later, I had found out (at a service centre near my home) that…

  • Why do I feel insecure?

    Why do I feel insecure?   Is it the need to please? Is it the need to impress?   Should everyone like me? Should I care what they think?   No one can be perfect Flaws are so endearing They are who you are   Why do I feel insecure? Do I need to prove…

  • I keep losing things

    Do I have an absent mind ? As some people assume ? I certainly have an autist mind A mind with a different tune Organization is not my forte Though I try my best It is a real test With less success than failure I keep losing things Though I do take care It is…

  • My experiences as an Aspie: Part Six

    Again, to refresh you all; here are the first 5 parts: https://ashwinkumar1989.in/2017/05/09/my-experiences-as-an-aspie-part-one/ , https://ashwinkumar1989.in/2017/05/10/my-experiences-as-an-aspie-part-two/ , https://ashwinkumar1989.in/2017/05/12/my-experiences-as-an-aspie-part-three/ , https://ashwinkumar1989.in/2017/05/25/my-experiences-as-an-aspie-part-four/ and https://ashwinkumar1989.in/2017/07/30/my-experiences-as-an-aspie-part-six/ . One of the things that I have not discussed so far is the therapy itself. As mentioned earlier, the counsellor in Mumbai has been far more effective than the one in Chennai; as she made a concerted effort to…

  • Some days are really bad

    Some days are really bad Nothing goes right You have no might At the end, you are glad You try your best Nothing clicks for you It’s a real character test More so, when autist is you Why only results matter? Why not your efforts? Your morale will shatter Breached, is your fort Once work…

  • My experiences as an Aspie: Part Five

    Well, well. It has been a while indeed. 2 months! If you have forgotten the earlier parts (I wouldn’t blame you at all if you had 😉 ) here are the links: https://ashwinkumar1989.in/2017/05/09/my-experiences-as-an-aspie-part-one/ , https://ashwinkumar1989.in/2017/05/10/my-experiences-as-an-aspie-part-two/ , https://ashwinkumar1989.in/2017/05/12/my-experiences-as-an-aspie-part-three/ and https://ashwinkumar1989.in/2017/05/25/my-experiences-as-an-aspie-part-four/ . To keep you up-to-date, I started working at a recruitment consultancy in Malad West since April 2016; involving a…

  • The pain of being a liberal autist

    Ever wonder how I came to be thus? Dig deep into my childhood Answers you may find thus Being bullied is never good More so, if it is because you are different Being chased with sticks around a park and occasionally beaten Just because playing cricket with yourself was not a fad then On my…

  • My experiences as an Aspie: Part Four

    After a while, I am back! To refresh you all, here are the first 3 parts: https://ashwinkumar1989.in/2017/05/09/my-experiences-as-an-aspie-part-one/  , https://ashwinkumar1989.in/2017/05/10/my-experiences-as-an-aspie-part-two/ and https://ashwinkumar1989.in/2017/05/12/my-experiences-as-an-aspie-part-three/ . I was lucky that my mom had a counsellor friend who had her own clinic near my home. By the way, it was obvious that my counselling in Chennai was not very effective; and I had…

  • My experiences as an Aspie: Part Three

    Hope you are so far enjoying, as well as getting a good insight into my experiences as an Aspie! Well, for those of you who have not yet read the parts 1 and 2; it’s never too late – here are the links:https://ashwinkumar1989.in/2017/05/09/my-experiences-as-an-aspie-part-one/  and https://ashwinkumar1989.in/2017/05/10/my-experiences-as-an-aspie-part-two/ . My employers at my first organization were kind enough to…