How My Life Has Changed In Four Years

This is a poem on what has changed in my life from 2019 to 2023; and it has taken me a week to put everything together; because I am really baring my soul here and of course work has kept me busy as well. Here is the content:

There was but a time

When, single and happy was I

Thus, never would I give a dime

When it cometh to love and romance

Undertaking a train trip at least once a month

Attending a poetry open mic one week

Followed by a comedy show the very next week

And a music event the week after

I got bored never

Even as passed month after month

Friends, did I lack never

Positive, was I ever

Except when it cometh to work stress

Yet, about myself, never did I feel less

Always there for me, was my family

And a few cousins, whom did I love dearly

So, you could say

That, I was living the dream

And come what may

Always would I be free

Free of anxieties and insecurities

Stress, jealousy, guilt, depression

Oh boy, could I go on and on

Except of course, when it cometh to work

Which was a different ballgame altogether

On the whole, though

Never did I have much to bother

Thus, very rarely did I feel low

However, soon did everything change

In the form of an arranged marriage

Of course, there was a brief period

When, indulged in courtship, did we

Including speaking over the phone every day

However, only twice did we actually meet

And never did she sweep me off my feet

Nevertheless, found her cute, did I

Not to mention, humble and down-to-earth

Thus, to say no, I had not a heart

And soon was the engagement fixed

Though my feelings were mixed

A small ceremony it was

Although, as mentioned earlier

Felt, did I, that we were a cute couple

And did my affection for the girl double

Even ready was I, to help her financially

Without a second thought

As though she were already a part of my family

Just when seemed I, to be in seventh heaven

Did the pandemic make its presence known

Indefinitely postponed, were our nuptials

Gave us the silent treatment, did my fiancée

Made excuses for her, did we

And gave her space

Probably just a bad phase

Did we think

And refused to let our hopes sink

However, never were things the same again

Finally broke her silence, did my fiancée

But a change there was

When it cometh to her enthusiasm

And not a positive one at that

Were we more alert

We could have smelled a rat

Only free to talk around 9 PM, was she

Although, owing to COVID

Lost her job, had she

Again, we let it pass

After all, why make a fuss

Over a small matter

Unless were we mad as a hatter?

Finally tied the knot, did we

After what seemed like light years

However, not so enthusiastic was she

Not even shedding happy tears

There were but a few red flags

Such as her reluctance

To indulge in conversations

And a rather spartan abstinence

When it cometh to physical displays of affection

But, never did I show any objection

Because, felt I, did she need some time

Even as her bell lacked a chime

As the days passed

Grew, did the pain in my heart

As my wife didn’t play her part

Especially when it cometh to time spent with me

However, gave her a long rope, did we

Ultimately, something had to give

And there came an absolute shocker

However, refuse did I, to believe

That my spouse was a cheater

So besotted was I

Even when all the evidence pointed otherwise

Blinded me, did love, from being wise

Tried her best, did my best friend

To save me from disaster

But turned out, did my wife, to be worse than a fiend

Destroying all the common sense I could muster

More possessive than even Othello, was she

Forcing me to completely ignore my unofficial sister

As though she were a lowly creature

Eventually though, did God turn out to be kind

As my bestie had a very strong mind

Teaming up with my official sister

And ultimately preventing the disaster

However, the subsequent divorce process was tedious to the extreme

Not to mention, emotionally draining

Because my estranged wife was cunning

Even as it did seem

That the ball was in our court

The pun being completely intentional, of course

Ultimately, free was I

To lead an independent life

However, deceitful enough, was my now ex-wife

To rob us of four frigging lakhs

On apparently humanitarian grounds

I know, ridiculous it sounds

But it is the hard, cold reality

That, cruel to men, is destiny

When it cometh to divorces

Never has my life been the same again

Because, never have I been free of pain

From a happy and confident bachelor

To a divorcee full of self-doubt and fear

And always on the guard

My trust system having collapsed

Life is indeed hard

Especially when so much time has passed

Making remarriage a rather difficult process

Thus, my mind is but a complete mess

Obvious, is the change in me

And not a good one at that

Yes, you can say

That I am divorced, but so what?

However, life is indeed unfair

Even if I have a lot of flair

When it cometh to work

Because, such a painful experience can leave scars

Even bigger than dents in cars

Yes, I do have a support system

My immediate family and a few close cousins

A few close friends

Particularly the aforementioned best friend

Nevertheless, I have numerous insecurities

Causing me to make mistakes

Especially when it cometh to social interaction

Badly do I need a diversion

As for my ex-wife

You have truly changed my life

For the worse, of course

And you may think

That you can get away with your actions

Because of the feminazis’ total silence and inaction

When it cometh to life for men after divorce

But it is only a matter of time

Before you become a ball of slime

Because Jesus is on my side

And he may bide his time

But meet with a disaster, you surely will

And then, will there not a single soul be, to pay your bill

So, enjoy your time while it lasts

My cunning and treacherous little ex-wife

The woman who changed my life